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Dec 29, 2005
Wow...it's been so long since i've written in here. It's pretty amazing, I guess I got a life. haha. Well this past month has been interesting. And at this moment, I've never been so happy before. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart =)
Posted at 11:40 pm by missnats
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Dec 4, 2005
holy wow, it's been so long since I've blogged on here. Been too busy with everything else, distracting myself away from.... stupidness ya, pretty much. I guess I'm finally good with everything, I'm starting to be able to get past everything, and to just move on. I don't like being played, and since I'm starting to notice that I'm prone to it, I'm just gunna stay away..far far away. So from now all. School, friends and leaving calgary in 7 months. bahahahhahaa.
So pride and prejudice was one of the best movies ever. It's so cute and sweet and just amazing. It was so beautiful, and almost made me believe that happily ever afters and fairy tales exist.. almost. But either way, it was a beautiful movie and I loved it and I wanna see it again. Anyone??
It's almost my birthday!! this has been a hectic year. Sixteen has been everything but sweet. Probably one of the most justifying years so far. Alot of decisions had to be made this year, some were known some were kept to myself. Some were really bad decisions and some were for the best. Lost alot of friends, and gained a couple for life. This year has really taught me alot about myself and other people. It's also made me create alot of bad karma for myself.
Posted at 10:34 pm by missnats
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Oct 27, 2005
I'm glad to know you think my problems aren't
REAL problems. I kno I'll have bigger problems
more things to worry about in the future. But this
is what I'm worrying about now. So don't judge me
upon them.
I'm tired of explaining. I'm tired of being interpretated.
You don't know. Let me tell you what I think
and take it for what it is, don't tell me it's not real
I assure you it is.
Posted at 11:58 pm by missnats
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Oct 25, 2005
"photoshoots" are stupid.
Ew. I have grad pics tmr.. I hadn't even started putting thought into it.. untill.. well.. now. I hate pictures like this. It's so hard to smile when they force you to smile. I JUST can't wait to be airbrushed.. whatever.
tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cuz I can't stand up and I can't fall down
cuz I'm somewhere in the middle of this
you know I find it hard
I always try to find the seeing light
I dont like the way things are
I keep falling to my knees
somewhere in the middle of this
cuz I'm somewhere in the middle of this
-Somewhere In The Middle by Dishwalla
Yea... Pretty much explains it all..
Annoyed. Disappointed.
When will people grow up?
...Look How Beautiful he is =)...

Posted at 11:41 pm by missnats
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Oct 22, 2005
So I finally decided that I wouldn't go to escape tonight. I think I'm regretting it already, not like I'm doing anything anyways.. but ehh.. i guess the people.. i just dind't wnana go with them. But damnn ...i missing out on cosmic gate.. watever..
I really think I'm losing it these days. Im not sure whether or not I should care, but all this disappointment I'm getting from you ... it almost seems expected now. Really.. I don't understand what happend. One day we were perfectly fine and the next, you're not talking to me and things just got awkward. Please let me know what happend. That's all I'm asking now. I need some closure. Even though we never really were an "item" you can't deny that there wasn't something. I thought I was doing so well, I waited so long before and made sure it would be okay to care this time, and when I finally do.. its just like all the other times.
539000..what happend to that?
someone save me please.
Posted at 06:40 pm by missnats
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Oct 21, 2005
*yawn. this has been a hell of a week. for the most part.. it's been bad. I've been in a bad mood for pretty much this whole week. I think in the last week I've gotten more bitter than I have in the last... 16 and a half years of my life ahaha. But whatever. I assure you, it'll pass. Just stick with me friends. haha.
Dear Girl, I've lost all respect for you. I have no tolerance for you anymore, what you're doing.. is quite... I don't know. Just... expect the worst is all I can say to you now.
I went and got my hair cut today.. I can't really decide if I like it or not... maybe I should waited till AFTER grad pics to do anything to it.
Before && After
Posted at 09:45 pm by missnats
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Oct 17, 2005
It's been an interesting week or so to say the least. I think I'm overreacting, who am I to be this way anyways, so I guess I should just go with the flow if I'm not gunna do anything about it except get mad.
I love my wives, they pretty much rock my socks. And...laugh till I wanna pee myself. NEEDLE SWORD MATCHES!!! eeek to all the stupid ppl. I can't stand you anymore. I dont' have the patience for you ignorant people, don't you see at all??? don't say I didn't warn you, cuz I did. I told you everything I could, all the advice I could give to you. If you don't listen to it, it's not my fault, you just keep falling back into the hole and complaining about it... don't you learn anything at all???seriously.. pottery is a manwhore..and ugly and dirty, guys just ewww...stay away from him...
GET THE FUK OVER IT! ahahhaa..yess... so im a little bitter...so what? I dont' see a reason to why not. ahhahahaha
k...done with the ranting
I miss you robyn, like hell...
EXORCISMING definetly this year!!!
Posted at 06:56 pm by missnats
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Oct 9, 2005
Gahhh..finally...so glad to have a long weekend away from school. It's already been a month, but sometimes it seems to be going by waaaay too slow.
Friday was interesting.. went to see the McNally football game with megan and Kelli.. and after we went to subway and just sat there for a pretty long time.. and than 'white flag' by dido and 'leaving on a jet plane' came on.. and we pretty much were all on the verge of drowning in tears haha.
I went to my first wedding this weekend, actually yesterday. I thought it was the cutest thing in the world. More people I know need to get married and invite me to their weddings =P. The ceremony was just so cute. And the reception was sooo much more fun than I expected it to be. But bahh.. I still can't figure out who that guy is. It's bugging me, I swear I've met him before. But I still can't think from where. hmmmm
I think I'm turning emo. I feel so sad and depressed and...just down right bitter these last couple days. It's driving me crazy. I really don't know if I should give up or not. I don't know if you ever thought of me the way I think of you. I keep letting each chance slip away, because I just can't help but run away at the thought that it's not the same for you as it is for me. Everytime I'm with you, everything seems so right, like you're so right for me. But have I been taking it for more than it is? I really can't tell anymore. But I feel like I've fought so hard to keep a grasp on this, even knowing that the first time there was someone else..I still held on, because I knew that one day I could win this fight. but I'm really not so sure anymore. I need a hint, a clue, good or bad. Just a sign so I can know to keep fighting or to let go. Guys ARE trouble.. all of you. RAWRRRR
New Deadline. 226577
Posted at 11:16 pm by missnats
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Oct 4, 2005
Hell no..it's never gunna happen. I just can't bring myself to care about social that much. I hate it so much and the stupid teacher RAWRRRR!!!
K, so I've decided on going with option 2.. 113005 deadline. I think I'm confused again. This is so retarded..why am I always like this.
but the better question is...
why?
Posted at 09:49 pm by missnats
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Oct 3, 2005
There really is no denying that anymore. School's making me this way, I swear. And stupid people too. Karma's on it's way to catching up to me. Procrastination is to extreme. And curiosity is gunna kill the coward. I need to a break, I need that something.
I really wish I was as big of a risk taker as I used to claim to be. Maybe if I actually took this step, I would be able to claim it. I wanna know. I need to know. It seriously is just eating me alive inside. i hate that I'm letting my wind wander like this, go with the flow, that's the way it should be. I need to focus on something else. But I really can't. gahhh.
whyyyy?
Posted at 07:12 pm by missnats
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